Guilt is a common feeling in the landscape of caregiving. Guilt can
propel you to be the best you can be…or it can immobilize you.
For caregivers, painful feelings — such as guilt, sadness and anger
— are like any other pain. It’s your body’s way of saying, “Pay
attention.” Just as the pain of a burned finger pulls your hand
from the stove, so, too, guilt guides your actions and optimizes
You have a picture of the “Ideal You” with values you hold and how
you relate to yourself and others. Guilt often arises when there’s a
mismatch between your day-to-day choices and the choices the “Ideal
You” would have made. The “Ideal You” may be a parent who attends
all of the kids’ soccer games. Miss a game to take your dad to the
doctor, and you think you’re falling short.
You may have needs out of line with this “Ideal You.” You may
believe that your own needs are insignificant, compared to the needs
of your sick loved one. You then feel guilty when you even
recognize your needs, much less act upon them. A mother may ask
herself, “How can I go out for a walk with my kids when my mother is
at home in pain?” (A hint for this mother: she can give more to her
mother with an open heart when she takes good care of herself.)
You may have feelings misaligned with the “Ideal You.” Feeling
angry about the injustice of your loved one’s illness? You might
even feel angry at your loved one for getting sick! Recognizing
those feelings can produce a healthy dose of guilt. Yes, you may
even feel guilty about feeling guilty.
“Why did my loved one get sick?” you may ask. Perhaps, if the
“Ideal You” acted more often, your loved one would be healthy. What
if you served more healthful meals? What if you called 911, instead
of believing your husband when he said his chest pain was just “a
If you’re the kind of person prone to guilt, learn to manage guilt
so that guilt serves you rather than imprisons you. Here are eight
tips for managing your caregiver guilt:
Recognize the feeling of guilt : Unrecognized guilt eats at your
soul. Name it; look at the monster under the bed.
Identify other feelings : Often, there are feelings under the
feeling of guilt. Name those, too. For example, say to yourself: “I
hate to admit this to myself, but I’m resentful that Dad’s illness
changed all of our lives.” Once you put it into words, you will have
a new perspective. You will also be reminding yourself of how
fortunate you are to have what it takes to take care of loved one.”
Be compassionate with yourself : Cloudy moods, like cloudy days,
come and go. There’s no one way a caregiver should feel. When you
give yourself permission to have any feeling, and recognize that
your feelings don’t control your actions, your guilt will subside.
Look for the cause of the guilt : What is the mismatch between this
“Ideal You” and the real you? Do you have an unmet need? Do you
need to change your actions so that they align with your values?
Take action : Meet your needs. Needs are not bad or good; they just
are. If you need some time alone, find someone to be with your
Change your behavior to fit your values: For example, Clara felt
guilty because her friend was in the hospital and she didn’t send a
card. Her guilt propelled her to buy some beautiful blank cards to
make it easier for her to drop a note the next time.
Ask for help : Call a friend and say, “I’m going through a hard
time. Do you have a few minutes just to listen?” Have a family
meeting and say, “Our lives have been a lot different since grandma
got sick. I’m spending more time with her. Let’s figure out
together how we’ll get everything done.”
Revisit and reinvent the “Ideal You” : You made the best choices
based on your resources and knowledge at the time. As you look to
the future, you can create a refined vision of the “Ideal You.” What
legacy do you want to leave? What values do you hold dear? Then,
when you wake up in the morning and put on your clothes, imagine
dressing the “Ideal You.” Let this reinvented “Ideal You” make
those moment-to-moment choices that create your legacy.
Understand that you will be a more effective caregiver when you care
for the caregiver first. Loved ones neither want nor expect
selfless servants. As a caregiver, when you care for yourself, you
increase and improve your own caring. Yes, guilt is part of
caregiving, but this guilt can help you become the caregiver you and
your loved one want you to be.
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